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Sometimes it’s ok to not be ok

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Sometimes it’s ok to not be ok
Sometimes it’s ok to not be ok. It’s ok to be sad. It’s ok to feel lonely. It’s ok to feel confused. It’s okay to be upset. It’s ok to feel lost. It’s ok to fall apart. It’s ok to FEEL…
Some days are just harder than others. We all have our struggles. Remember you’ll be ok eventually, even if you don’t feel it at the time…
I’m still learning that it’s ok, & in fact perfectly normal, to not feel ok & full of beans every single day. It’s ok to feel a bit flat. A bit deflated. A bit down in the dumps. I’ve physically & emotionally drained myself since getting clean by trying to be on a constant natural high every day in everyday ‘real’ life. It’s fucking exhausting!
I’ve been numb with drugs & alcohol for as long as I can remember. I’m that used to being as high as a kite on narcotics, that anything less than this feels like I’m out of sorts. In reality this is just day to day life in all it’s breathtaking beautiful glory!
Life is fucking amazing, & awful all at the same time, with all the bits in between. You’ve just got to learn to take the natural highs with the natural lows. Which for us addicts is a lot harder than it sounds…
You need to allow yourself to really be aware of your feelings. It’s ok to bare your soul. You’re not obligated to be perfectly fine all of the time…or any time for that matter! Feeling lost is part of your journey. Don’t avoid it by using substances. See what those feelings are showing you & use it. Uncertainty doesn’t last forever. Clarity always shows up for us eventually…

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